2007-01-15-Feeling Your Way Along
Marin #116
Contents
• 1 Heading
o 1.1 Topic: Feeling Your Way Along
o 1.2 Group: Marin TeaM
• 2 Facilitators
o 2.1 Teacher: Michael
o 2.2 TR: JL
• 3 Session
o 3.1 Opening
o 3.2 Lesson
o 3.3 Dialogue
o 3.4 Closing
Topic: Feeling Your Way Along
Group: Marin TeaM
Facilitators
Teacher: Michael
TR: JL
Session
Opening
Dear Michael and Mother Spirit, We thank you for your recent lessons on how to achieve a wonderfully creative and spontaneous relationship with our friends and all the others we meet. Thank you for reminding us that those around us are our greatest treasures, and we have the possibility for being theirs. Amen.
MICHAEL: Good evening, my children, this is Michael. My, what a group tonight. I do appreciate the years of devotion this group represents. How many times you have opened your hearts to me, and how many times we have enjoyed a rebirth together. How many tears of joy we have known. How many times you have paid me the most sincere compliment when, after we ended our sessions, you burst into laughter and honest exclamations of, “Wow!” How many times have you walked out of our meetings together, reborn, and it was truly, “Oh holy night, the stars are brightly shining?” Just imagine the joy you bring to Mother Spirit and me. And for this we most humbly thank you.
(Some day…)
Lesson
I wish I could share even more with you what it is to be a Creator Son, with you as my children, but this I promise you: some day I will–directly, face to face. We will stand together in the crowning glory of your life, and I will be a proud father indeed, to send you off out into the galaxy as one of mine. So let our hearts be full.
Let me help you meet the fears and anxieties, the very real vicissitudes you do encounter. Let me help you meet them with my peace in your heart. Let me help you feel Mother Spirit’s love pour into you, encouraging you, even teasing you with her laughter. For she too will be standing along with us when you bid this, our homeland, a fond farewell for a season, sure and certain to return to us some eons hence, straight from our Father yourself.
But even this will be only the first step in your unfathomable destiny. Out beyond the grand universe and the present universe age there lies winking and twinkling at us even that first space level with its millions of galaxies, its bottomless mystery and adventure. So let yourselves go forward without fear to be that person standing before you in all your tomorrow’s. Let the mystery and the adventure start now, unafraid.
You ask for our help in finding the courage to do this, so let us breathe it into you. Feel it. Remember, my children, you are not keeping your own heart beating, so feel me there. You have some control over the focus of your thoughts, but the actual thoughts themselves? See if you can recognize in them the touch of God, your own personal Father Fragment that lives within you, and has been a part of you all these years.
Whenever you are in trouble, or in pain, or panic, lean on us. Calm your fearful headlong thoughts. Come back home. Just be still. Feel us in your breath and in your heart, but above all feel God’s gift: feel your actuality. Feel how you are–absolutely. This is you, and you will be eternal. This is the gift and the promise of our Father. You can feel this; you can credit it. You can acknowledge him and say to yourself, and to him, “My Father, I acknowledge you with all my heart and all my soul. I thank you for me, and I hereby acknowledge: we are! And through you I always will be.”
With this fullness beyond anything you yourself can create alone, you can let go; and you can hear another person standing before you; and you can see them; and you can realize–whether they can or not–they too absolutely are. Although there is a personal reality of each of you beyond what either of you can apprehend at this early stage of your existence–it is not yet something you possess–you can feel it. This is your life; this is their life.
This your deepest and only necessary security, this living spirit. This is your home, and it is theirs also. Meeting them with this equanimity, this peace deep within you, you will be like a little sun beaming love, consideration, respect, and above all–acknowledgment. See if you can find a way to acknowledge everyone you meet, for this is that creative, spontaneous relationship you pray for. This is something that has a life of its own, that can come into being to fulfill your soul’s desire. This is what you can be for each other. This is what you and I can be together.
So I wish you a happy, and joyful, and creative new year. I feel both the joy and fear in your hearts, my children, and I see the radiant smiles you offer me through it all. Don’t forget to breathe; feel your heart beating. Feel your actuality. You are a real citizen of the cosmos. You’re an absolute, living fact. Fear not. Be in my peace. If you have any questions or comments this evening, these too delight me. So bring them forth.
Dialogue
Student: Father Michael, I don’t have any questions right at the moment, but just a sincere Thank you!–and a heartfelt appreciation for all your love and support.
MICHAEL: You are very welcome, my son. This is a very special time for Mother and me when we meet like this and all join together in a deep communion. Know that we truly do feel and acknowledge the love you send us, and we’re so happy to see how it warms your hearts too. Just to express your generosity this way strengthens you and gives you hope. So I’ll say amen to that.
Student: So, Michael: It’s B. I wanted to ask you about Martin Luther King, whose birthday is today. Is there anything you could say about him that would enlighten us about his life, his mission on earth, and what he stands for– you know– for us today? I would be delighted to hear any thoughts you might have about Martin Luther King.
MICHAEL: Yes, my son, I would like to mention how this mission of his, you spoke of, was one he chose himself to fulfill. He could sense a need, and realize that the sensing of this need, and the comprehension of it, was uniquely his. This was what he alone could give expression to. In having done so he invites you all to feel for that message of hope, that challenge of progress, that extension of love which can be your unique gifts to your fellows.
What is it you can sense no one else is offering? What is it no one else is saying? What is it you have to offer that can give you the courage to walk in his steps–and this last I mean purely symbolically. For simply to copy another or emulate his life is not what he did. I could say, how can you use his example to find your own steps forward? He had great courage. He saw his life as one with his mission, yet so to value this mission of his–what he had to say, how he could say it–through all the chances that he took, he could be out front, even being an easy target.
He knew so many glorious moments all along that sustained him. He was able to articulate a vision, an ideal with enormous drawing power. This was his offering of hope. This was his daring to hope. This was his expression of hope, just as his being human speaks not so much a challenge, but an actual accomplishment, offering you this hope of what you can accomplish in your life. That to me was his greatest mission and his greatest message, and similar to the one I offered myself. That is: the actual flowering of courage is hope. Because you are daring to put your life on the line, knowing deep within you, this is how you actually have your life.
This is what I meant this evening about letting yourself go, to open yourself to the next person you meet and be the bright, cheerful, hopeful person in their life this day. So you see Dr. King was not in any way a sacrifice, even to himself. He actually knew a glorious fulfillment, from time to time, all along the way. And that is what stands, independent of what happened to him. You all realize and acknowledge: his example was not, and ever since has not been taken away. He is worthy of your honor, even as you, my son, are worthy of mine. Be in my peace.
Student: I’d like to nominate Dr. King as one of the four and twenty councilors to the planet, unless he already is one.
MICHAEL: All in good time.
Student: Greetings, Michael, I’d like to thank you for your words of encouragement . They are much needed right now. As you know, it is what we put forward now, what sustainable ideas and actions we take, that are going to rebuild this planet—our cultures and civilizations. This will require a great deal of courage, but it’s good to know someone has gone on before us to show us the way to do this. We have been told we need to have in place our ideas and plans of sustainability, if we are going to bring this planet forward before these great, cataclysmic events take place. This seems like a very large task to take the one job that is unique to us, and have the courage to stand for it, but it is very important now. I do appreciate your words of hope. Thank you.
MICHAEL: Yes, my son, sometimes it’s as if it is a totally opaque midnight in your soul and you can only feel your way along a very real path. This is what you are reduced to at times: just feeling your way along moment to moment, having the courage to let yourself wonder, what is my part to play? How can I in my life—in my sphere of influence—lead the way? You are all reaching toward this in allowing yourselves to wonder what might happen. This is a good example—this genuine concern, of seeking to know how your fellows are forced to live. The purpose of your meditations is to open yourself to all the aspects of your life, and wonder what your own deepest wisdom is calling upon you to do to set an example.
This is the real meaning of leadership. This is the doing that truly convinces others so much more than anything you could say. And your words are so much more powerful when they are completely congruent with what you are striving to do. However paradoxical or contradictory it may sound, in this uncertain striving you are so much more effective when you can feel the security of spirit within you. This is the courage to hope when you cannot see the way forward, to keep ever bright in your mind the ideal you would love to see come about. It calls upon your creativity. Think deeply about what you would like to see come about in your small sphere, in your society, in the world.
For this world is in all your hands. You cannot expect the celestial family to step in and rescue you. Yet you must accept on faith that this is not needed. We do not use the word “adventure” lightly, for both Mother Spirit and I do realize, my children, what it is costing you, especially the more unfortunate members of your human society. But this is the essence of your free will—that so much is put into your hands.
So trust, my son, that you are doing the right thing when you open yourself to feel the full weight of this responsibility. Yet be not daunted. Continue to cherish hope in your heart, especially when you are just feeling your way along. Does this help assuage the worry in your soul, my son?
Student: Michael, your presence in my heart always helps with these worrying concerns. I will continue to call on you to fill me in those times of need, even those times when I’m feeling good, because I do need you now—as I always have. Yes, these words do help, and I thank you for them.
MICHAEL: Know that is truly me you feel, and I’m glad to be there. Continue in my peace.
Student: Yes, Michael, I don’t have any formal questions, I’m just allowing myself to evolve, to be open to what awaits me. I went through one of my periods today of embracing impermanence, knowing that some of my customers are old and will no longer be with us, and one day I will not have their friendship and be working in their gardens. Those changes are inevitable. It’s my responsibility to allow this and be unimpeded in embracing the fullness of my actuality.
You’re right in what you say, that I am full of joy, but also apprehensive—fearful is what you said. Because I feel both. I do have high ideals, and it is scary at times to have these ideals, especially with the world the way it is now. But as I said to Mother Spirit last week, I feel I’m no longer of this world; it no longer holds me. So, this is where I’m at. And I guess I would rather not be anywhere else, because I do feel the wisdom that is within me, that Mother Spirit validated, and said so last week. I do feel it taking hold.
MICHAEL: My son, for as much as you feel yourself expanding, and conceive of yourself as not being of this world, we have no fear of your floating away! (much laughter all around) You will find you are just in one phase of a big cycle. But we salute your growing ability of recognition, developing the innate but often late-appearing ability you all have to accept or, as you put it, allow yourself to recognize where you are moment to moment. With this allowance comes such freedom, freedom from that great bugaboo of denial. For it does take nerve to look uncertainty in the eye, and then feel you were made for it! (students’ rueful chuckles) This is that sublime uncertainty with which our Father sees fit to encompass us all. And so we honor his trust in us, his trust that we are able to rise to the occasions.
Student: So it’s a trust in his certainty.
MICHAEL: Indeed. (more laughter all around)
Student: What I meant by not being of this world, I’m saying I am of this planet though. (more laughter—”Are you sure?”—etc.) Yeah, I am. This is my home.
MICHAEL: This is that stretch we’ve been calling upon you to make. Some of your poets have expressed it well as having your feet on the earth yet daring to reach for those ideals.
Student: Yes, to be open to a new paradigm of existence.
MICHAEL: Now you’re getting poetic. Yet there are certain truths that can only be captured in poetry. That’s its purpose, and it is delightful indeed. Those of you who are striving to be aware of the world situation, striving to be citizens of the planet and aware of what is happening to its more unfortunate members; and accepting deep in your hearts that, there but for the grace of God go I; daring to examine your own lives and wonder what you might do personally to help: this is that wonderful stretch that, however like a sore and aching muscle at times, does keep you in touch with the flexibility, the resiliency of life itself.
One of your great dancers once mentioned that to live in this flexibility just on a physical level—to keep stretching every day—you will, ironically, know more pain this way than someone who just lets himself or herself go. But then observe their grace of movement, even into their eighties and nineties. Look at the youth they are tapping into each time they stretch into those limits of what their body can do. Think of all that careful-minded attention and soulful valuing they are developing every day. So keep stretching. Be not of this world in your spirit. Just keep your feet on the ground, your hands in the soil—as I know you are.
Student: Thank you for that. I would like to allow the feeling-capability to be actualized so I can be of greater service.
MICHAEL: Well, here comes the next person. Be ready. And be in my peace. (very long pause, then, addressing another student:) Have you anything you wish to share, my daughter? Student: I am wondering, how I can better be the person who would be leading my fellow folks to you? What can I do to be dynamic and loving? If you have any suggestions about how this could happen, I would be very willing to listen. What can I do more?
MICHAEL: Well, my daughter, I’m tempted to say—on a superficial level, doubt not so much! But this is your way of opening yourself, of questioning yourself, of wondering. It is even a very marvelous, self-forgetting way you do surrender to wonder. I would say, carry on! Your genuine interest in others, your delight in others has done you well. You have known an enormously full life, full of people. Your soul is brimming, my daughter, so fear not. Just continue to be of good cheer, the laughing and sensitive and delightful person you can see mirrored in all those eyes that look to you with hunger, or fear, or just loneliness. Just continue to let yourself go to meet them. See and feel how Mother Spirit and I are right in there with you. Continue being our hands that touch, and our eyes that see, and our ears that listen. We do love you so very much. So continue to let our love flow through you. And doubt not in your core! Just keep wondering. You’ve a long way to go; keep stepping off bravely. Mother Spirit sends you her love. Keep finding my peace.
Closing
My children, it’s been a full evening. My heart is full with your love. I can feel your hearts are full with mine. What a life this is we share together! Thank you, Father, for these children. Thank you that I am their father as well. Thank you for my soul-mate, Nebadonia. What a treasure we all have in each other, in your loving arms.
Mother Spirit and I bid you a fond farewell in this particular form, but know that we are with you always, to the end of time. Be in my peace. Good evening.
