2005-04-18-Choice And Choosing
Marin #44
Contents
1 Heading
1Topic: Choice and Choosing
2Group: Marin TeaM
2Facilitators
1Teacher: Michael
2TR: JL
3Session
1Opening
2Lesson
3Dialogue
4Closing
Topic: Choice and Choosing
Group: Marin TeaM
Facilitators
Teacher: Michael
TR: JL
Session
Opening
Dear Michael and Nebadonia, There’s a big wind outside tonight, coming in off the ocean, gusting through the trees and combing out all the branches. Then we have Your spirits inside us blowing through our souls, creating, freeing, empowering. Thank You for Your invitation for us to renew ourselves, to feel You coming to us from every direction and dimension. Welcome to our lives and thank You again. Amen.
Michael. Good evening, My faithful sons and daughter. What a joy it is to be with you again and to feel your love for each other. This is Michael. Yes, yes indeed, what a season, what a time of renewal. What a miracle it seems for these new buds to be bursting out of…where? What is this beauty bursting forth seemingly out of just a pin-point? What is this, bursting into time and space all around us, right within us? Where is it coming from? Why is it doing this? Is there any plan to all of this or is there just some enormous, intrinsically creative Being who can’t contain himself? Or could it be both? Could it be this is the nature of God? And He’s so absolute, so infinite, so dependable that we, who are His sons and daughters, understand it for ourselves as an unfathomable plan, a divine intention which will never be exhausted in all of eternity?
Lesson
Recently, your Mother and I have been addressing what sometimes appears to you as two seemingly irreconcilable differences in your human lives you feel you are forced to choose between – one or the other. We have been assuring you that in many cases this choice is not necessary. You do not have to feel yourselves as incomplete beings of God’s handiwork in order to enjoy, at the same time, a great potential you have for endless growth. Conversely you do not need to shut down or deny this hunger within you for experience in order to feel complete moment by moment – an actual living existence.
Not all of you are capable yet of this achievement, for it is a kind of spiritual triumph to be able, not only to identify with the absolute reality of God, but to actually experience being a part of it. You have to rise above youthful and adolescent insecurities, deep existential fears that in some way you are never quite fully here, for to a degree this had a validity in your youthful and adolescent relationship to reality. There was a truth in this, and this insecurity drove you until you came to a point of realization and acceptance that, Here I am. All of existence is not some ephemeral, constantly only-partial state or illusion that never quite reaches being real, but rather, God Is. His creation Is. And I am.
Now think of all that is continuing on moment to moment, all the profound cause and effect of not only physical energy and matter, and life, but also all you know of as mind, a great cosmic mind helping human beings tie body and spirit together. For you do realize this in some of your expanded notions of psychological as well as physical cause and effect. Still I would invite you to realize further that as profound and enormous as you can conceive this continuing reality, this is still only half of what is happening. Equal to it, counterbalancing it, is a continuous creation everywhere. This is the blossoming, the bursting forth – seemingly out of nowhere, yet real and continuously adding to what already exists.
So the Supreme Being is expanding. You are part of this. You share in some of His dimensions, you will encounter more There’s part of you that is not strictly limited to time and space. This is your essence, your God created personality. Then there’s part of you that does obey very strict physical law and though, in your childhood and adolescent years, this physical part of you could seem such a limitation, such a drag, such an anchor to your soaring imagination, once you realized that you fully and completely are, you could appreciate these marvelous bodies you have as the means by which you contact the world during this phase of your life.
A Daughter of the Infinite Spirit, Mother Nebadonia, helps your individual minds connect not only with your physical bodies, but also with the presence of God, the mighty wind you mentioned blowing through your souls, capturing and maintaining these irreplaceable experiences He created you to have. Now even He too can expand by enjoying being with you.
Everything and everyone bears the hallmark of its or his or her Creator. You have long marveled at snowflakes, but no two grains of sand are exactly alike either. Let alone two living personalities. Now put all this in motion out here in time and space, and realize no two events are the same. Tomorrow will be different than today, and we will all be different in it – on and on forever.
You can remember how the first inklings of this seemed to precipitate you forward as if you were still not quite…here…but only becoming something else. You were always about to fall over the edge of a cliff into the unknown, stumbling forward, just barely catching yourself as you stumbled and almost fell again, and again. Can you feel this now? Look deep in your souls and remember what it was to be a child or an adolescent, and be utterly swept away from time to time. Now take a deep breath, heave a little sigh and realize once again, You are.
You are standing on the edge of that yawning chasm of the unknown, perfectly secure. It was just you driving yourself along and there is no longer a need for this. You can stop and be still to feel the enormity and the absoluteness of existing. You can feel how you yourself are effortlessly, continually bursting into time and space. This is what it is to be alive.
Now for some of you, this stillness is only momentary. You are kind of new at this and so you forget yourself and find yourselves engaged again – memories, plans, worries, desires. You may need to set up a regular schedule to remind yourself to stop again, to pause and enjoy Gods’ pure gift of life itself. But as you find yourself more and more at home here, as this experience of Our nature becomes its own reward, you begin to choose what you will do. You are more and more capable of discovering what you want to do from an expanding awareness of your totality – physical, mental, spiritual, soul, and contact with all of Us and our Father. For just so, you create the very alternatives which give you choice.
Then, goodness! – look around. Where did – they – all come from? You’re surrounded and…yes! – every single one of them is as unfathomable as you are. And what is this flowing between you, between us? What is this we are capable of feeling for each other? What is this affection bursting in our hearts?
Thank You, Father, for sharing so much of Your nature. I can’t contain it either…
(There was a very long pause here, and many tears of gratitude all around).
Bless you, My children, for opening to feel Our love. If you have any questions or comments this evening, this too is included.
(And again many minutes passed before anyone felt like disturbing the peace).
Dialogue
Student. Michael, I just want to say tonight…sometimes it’s overwhelming –feeling my gratitude for Your divine plan and what You and Mother have given to us – having actively been co-creators with us – to awaken us from the spiritual slumber we’ve been in out here in time and space. It is truly nothing short of miraculous. There’s nothing greater than Your true soul’s love, creating these little miracles of the Father in our everyday lives, and destroying our unspeakable transgressions. I appreciate all those things with every fiber of my being.
Michael. Well, My daughter, I hardly needed to say, Bless you – because you are feeling this so directly. You seriously share Our joy. How thankful your Mother and I are that you are now maturing to the point where We can share so much of Our nature with you, especially this quality of wonder that most of you have so rarely, as human beings, realized that We too – your Mother Nebadonia and I – live in a state of wonder. It would seem from your standpoint that We are all-knowing and all-powerful, yet knowledge and wisdom and power do not in any way preclude wonder, for you or Us. Wonder is an emotional, re-active response of awe to the infinity of God’s creation. Yet it is also our individual active curiosity which is the prelude or precursor to our own creations – as in, say, Did you ever wonder what to do? So bless you, My daughter. Rest in My peace.
Student. Father Michael, I’m slowly getting a better understanding of our Heavenly Father from being here with You and the things You and Mother have said to us, but also the life You lived on earth. It’s hard to describe at this moment, but You, and Mother, and God are…nice Guys! Thank You very much for all of this.
Michael. Well, My son, We love you too! Can you see what a gift you are to Us, as we all are, in turn, a gift to our Father?
Student. I am beginning to see that more and more. I think all of us are – not just this circle, but all the personalities in Your universe.
Michael. Yes, this is how and why We belong to you. We are yours, just like God is all of ours. All together, would we have it any other way? Some of your philosophers have tried to portray this connection as an enormous net with a little glowing point of light, like a star, at every intersecting line; and how every little point of light, like a spherical mirror, reflects every other one. We can all definitely be glad that God had this idea of us to begin with. And it is quite a challenge for your somewhat necessarily time-and-space-conditioned minds to experience more than momentarily the realization that Everyone is expanding – the soul of every personal being in existence – as well as all of our numbers increasing. Yet this is the true picture of the reality we were all born into. And this is our home. Welcome home, My son.
Student. Thank You, Father.
Michael. And be in My peace.
Student. Yes, Father, about returning home – the idea You said to the Apostles about, seek you first the kingdom of heaven and all else shall be given to you – and the sense that home becomes the kingdom of heaven within us and around us – that God created and sees in every moment of life. In fact we have never left the kingdom of heaven. It is our reality, as You have said. So I choose to be in this place, this kingdom, and to see from this place, no matter what I look upon. The kingdom exists here, and in the White House, and Iraq, and each and everyone’s heart. When I go home tonight I choose to dwell in this place, and to live from this place, and see the people who I live with in this place, because they live here too. I thank You for Your words tonight. I only hope and pray I live here consciously, from here on, as I expand to God’s vision for me, and everyone…
Michael. Yes, My son, to this I’ll add a hearty, So be it! Yet there is one more step.
Don’t fear losing this awareness of being spiritually home. In one way, this is the final step, the greatest faith, the deepest trust. I include Myself in saying, we are not yet perfect. But people especially have at times projected onto God or The Universe their own human process of losing their awareness of themselves for the sheer delight of rediscovering who and where they are. This projection is a deep insight into your nature in one of its most finite or limiting aspects, you sometimes have to lose yourself – to gain the consciousness of everything and everyone else. But with faith, with trust during these times when you are at home, you can joyfully relinquish and let go even this awareness.
You can forget yourself as a supreme act of confidence, and in the pure trust you will find yourself – home again; and again. So that, for however long it may be, you can release yourselves – to serve each other. You can be wholly and completely there for another, unselfishly. Only incidentally will you realize what a gift to your own soul this other person has been. We have every confidence in you, My son, and it does Our hearts good to have you feel this in yourself. Rest in Our peace.
Student. Dear Michael, some of us have read a book – The Power of Now – by this man – his last name is Tolle, and he seems to have hit on some sort of communication with his Thought Adjuster or all-around sense of being-ness (sic), and to many methods of staying present in time. Some of us talked about it over the last few days. I wonder if anything could be elaborated on that, and also how to keep our attention-units on this time, or to act with what he calls a fuller sense of being-ness below our body sensations even, and become even more alert in the process?
Michael.Yes, My son, I believe this is the theme We have been elaborating on for many months. This is why We have been trying to help you feel so many living aspects of your nature – your being extra-ordinarily human. This is why Mother Nebadonia has run the risk of seeming to try to encapsulate in a few dozen sentences thousands of years of your sincere efforts at philosophy to express the almost paradoxical double nature of being here and now.
We have pointed at the potential for your freedom by way of your own individual creativity. This is what I meant tonight by saying that in addition to everything pouring into now – this living present moment – from the previous moment, there is equally within now a new creation going on that you can participate in. This, if you will, is the power of now. This is why fully experiencing yourselves being here and now is an achievement – an accomplishment of getting the faith to let go and forget about yourself in the full and highly conscious use of the present moment – whatever it is. And simply, profoundly trusting you will pop up again, look around in surprise, and find yourself self-consciously home once more. Now don’t you think our Father has a sense of humor? Enjoy this power of His, anytime. And be in My peace.
Closing
Student. Thank You – that was wonderful.
(There followed another very long and full stillness, a very large Presence).
Michael. Well, My children, what we have shared tonight was always beyond the words. Be in My peace.
Students. Thank You… Thank you, Michael.
