2005-05-02. Overcoming Resentment
Woods Cross #502
Topic: Overcoming Resentment
Group: Woods Cross TeaM
Teacher: Abraham, Emulan
TR: Nina
Opening
ABRAHAM: I am ABRAHAM. Greetings. I am touched by your willingness to hold out for reality in all forms. You are moving closer to the divine everyday. Your efforts are productive.
Lesson
As you mature in spirit, the desire to follow the Father’s will becomes stronger. It seems that anything less than following the will of Father is unsatisfactory, un-fulfilling. As you gain more experience on this world in the flesh, challenges of all kinds are more tempting to undertake. After all this mortal life is only the beginning.
How wonderful it is to see your faith in action. Your dedication to this purpose of Michael’s is inspirational to those who hope for a new and better age of Urantia. Last week we discussed overcoming resentments and becoming better instead of bitter. With that I leave you to my friend, EMULAN.
EMULAN: Greetings friends, again I am glad to meet with you. I enjoy this branch of my family tree. Abraham has asked me to speak on resentment and I feel my experience in that area has given me the ability to do so.
As you all know, I experienced quite traumatic events during my sojourn in the flesh. My family was tragically killed and taken from me. Certainly was I resentful and quite embittered. Of course, I was angry with Father–asking ‘why me? What had I done to deserve such heartache?’ My unwillingness to be open for spiritual direction had led me to the brink of insanity. I took this loss personally, even though it was simply an accident of time. While time appeared to be my enemy, it was definitely needed to chip away at my hardened heart and mind.
There are stages of grief, levels of healing advancement in spiritual understanding. There are also challenges in mastering self. In my pain I was brought to complete surrender and this had caused me to look God-ward and indeed was He looking back. I was given the understanding that not all was lost. My memories of my family were valuable and they continued to live on.
I had a great deal of anger toward the person that had played a part in the cause of the accident. I was given the understanding that this accident was not intentional by any means and this individual also suffered, therefore forgiveness was in sight. Forgiveness played a huge role in my overcoming resentment, but forgiveness did not come before understanding.
My surrendering had caused me to open my heart and mind, which literally reconnected my damaged circuits and from that understanding flowed freely. It was not without a great deal of time that had brought me healing and back to living a purposeful life. This event in time has been the most painful for me and Father, and only Father, brought about an ultimate good. Yes, I was able to reunite with my loved ones. We keep close contact.
I believe that to strive to live your ultimate faith keeps those mindal circuits connected with spirit and even though tragedy may occur, your connection is what will bring understanding, forgiveness and meaning. With Father’s help I overcame the bitterness and He helped me go on to create a purposeful life. All was not lost, it was just the beginning.
I am with the deepest gratitude to Father and His well organized plan and purpose. It is good to meet with you again, my friends. I give you back your teacher. Farewell.
ABRAHAM: Thank you, Emulan. Your wise words are wonderful lessons for us. From your seemingly average mortal life you have helped to bring about great lessons. Well done.
Closing
This week, my friends, let us think about the process of overcoming resentment. What does it take for us to find understanding, forgiveness, healing and moving beyond ourselves to bring about an ultimate good? That is all for this week. Know that I count myself blessed to be surrounded by so many wonderful beings. My love goes with you. Until next week, shalom.
